What's wrong with me, the Government?

6/26/07- Today seems worse than yesterday, if that’s possible. As yesterday, today I can only wish I was dead. My wife spent around 12hrs playing video poker on her computer, look’s like ditto today, and I thought I was the zombie. I really don’t won’t to be here anymore, I can’t stand bring around my wife after her Casino escapades, lost $1000’s when were in a bad situation with me not working and having to wait 2 years for an appeal from Social Security Disability. What a true miscarriage of justice. When someone can’t work, and has to wait 2 years for an appeal, just what do those overpaid shit heads think people are supposed to live on? Maybe we can go to the fine dinning establishments they eat at, and sort through the dumpsters for their leftovers, like dogs, I guess that’s how they view us.
With all this and the fact that the medication I’m taking for depression not working, never really did, just keeps your head above water. I have no interest in anything, I just want to be dead, getting up every day and feeling like this takes it’s toll on what’s left of my sanity. This has been going on for at least the last 5 years, although I’ve been on Anti-Depressants for about 15yrs. The med’s worked ok for a long time and than fizzled, I’ve been a gunnie pig for the drug companies trying almost every AD and combination of AD’s for 5 yrs. All with little or no progress with my depression. I do have some good days, I used to tell myself be glade for today, but there to far apart to consider that reasoning anymore.
Since 2000 when Adolph Bush started running thing’s (into the ground) I have an even worse outlook on the future than I had before, if that’s possible. How the people of this Country can stand by and watch those two turn this into a third world nation, strip us of our constitutional rights, start a war against a Sovereign Nation without cause, raping our treasury to do so, or as I call it, the Biggest money laundering scheme ever conceived, (our tax dollars sent to Iraq and returned via Halliburton), being caught in so many lies on national TV is just beyond my capability to understand. For me, what they have done rates right up there with pedophiles.
They should be arrested and tried for treason and crime’s against humanity, but alias Americans have become lazy and happy with what they personally have and don’t want to disturb the Status-Quo.
They haven’t yet comprehended that their actions (lack of them) is going to have devastating effects on the near future.
Anyone using their God given commonsense could see the calamity laying in the lurch. Maybe that’s a big part of my problems, I just can’t put my blinders on and pretend every things AOK.
I firmly believe that instead of listing to the media and mockers, everyone should watch Fahrenheit 911 and An Incontinent Truth, there are some things in these documentaries that should wake everyone up as to what’s going on in this country (changeable, maybe) and the world (not so changeable). Don’t listen to what everyone else say’s, see them for yourself and make your own opinion, you might surprise yourself and have a change of opinion of some of your friends and even family. I know this may seem strange to many but, try THINKING for yourself instead of following the popular thinking of the crowd. STOP letting everyone else think for you. Especially the news media, they only tell you what Washington wants you to know.
Frank Zappa was ahead of his time when he wrote “The Slime”. If your not familiar with the song go here:
http://www.seeklyrics.com/lyrics/Frank-Zappa/I-m-The-Slime.html

I know that the majority of Americans are displeased with Bush-Chaney and their Congressional Representatives know too, so why don't they do something about it? Because they are more interested in there re-election campaign (money) than doing whats right for their constituents and the Country.
Guess mabey i've been following the wrong road to mental health, mabey I should just become a drug addict and f#$@ it all, seems to work for a lot of people in this Country, when you die, problems over.